raya was a blast.
i had a fucking fun time.
ate and ate all day long.
and now im a bloated pig.
sumhow during the day, we even manage to look like refugees.
hmmmm.how was urs?

XOXO,
6:00:00 PM

selamat hari raya to all of you.
im going insane in between working at home.and at work.
my head hurts and my back aches.
at the rate im going,
i ll be stick thin by the end of the month.

XOXO,
7:17:00 PM

am feeling kinda numb right now.
god noes whatever for.
define numbness?
its when i can only see and think of an endless pit of dark black empty space.
thats numbness for me.
sometimes there's no point in trying so hard.
sometimes its best to remain aloof and oblivious.
sometimes u just get sick and tired.
and sometimes you just want to be alone.

u2's One

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you
Now you got someone to blame

You say
One love
One life
When it’s one need
In the night
It’s one love
We get to share it
It leaves you baby
If you don’t care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without

Well it’s too late
Tonight
To drag tha past out
Into the light
We’re one
But we’re not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come tor raise the dead
Havew you come here to play jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it’s all I got
We’re one
But we’re not the same
We hurt each other
Then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can’t be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should

One life
But we’re not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other

XOXO,
10:56:00 AM

Bittersweet symphony

despite all the lack of privileges in my company,
i do have to admit that i have made quite a number of interesting
aquaintances in that office.

for instance,
Poh, my mentor.
never in my wildest dreams had i ever imagine getting along really well with a 34 year old chinese ah beng.
he's the smartest ass loadsheeter i noe.
drinks teh-o in the afternoons and get drunk in the mornings.
never panicks.always bo chap.
he s so streetsmart that im awed by it.
i finally understood how soccer bettings go abt thanks to him.
and my hokkien vocab has improve tremendously ever since he became my mentor.
and its nice to noe that hes introducing me to all those old timer ahbengs at work
as his next "child prodigy";)
im most prob the only non chinese member in their "kua si mi" group.

and then there's kannan.
hes an indian national.
he looks like those indian nationals u avoid in little india.
but the moron's hilarious.
he's the first indian national i noe whom uses hokkien vulgarities when he's mad.
shld see his face when he says "wahlauey chou chibaiiii"

and then there's the 2 bangladeshi workers.
allo and fazlur.
they hate each other.
they feel threatened by each other's presence in the office.
allo calls everyone and everything Bhai.
"kinah-bhai,poh-bhai, yusoff bhai..etc etc"
even if he doesnt noe ur name, it ll be "load-sheeter bhai,control bhai,computer-bhai(when hes talking to the computer alone)"

and fazlur, is just obsessed with his pretty young wife in bangladesh.
he's the staunch muslim in that office and
he feels ostracized sitting there wif the rest of the setans.

there's many many more i can elaborate on.
its jus that,i ve got to stop here.
got to wash the toilets before The Mother starts screaming.
sigh.
when is this hari raya thingy gona be over and done with?
jus leave me alone.
the toilet stinks for gods sake!

XOXO,
9:56:00 PM