scummy's back.scummy's back scummay's back.
wehoo..
oh well till sunday nite though..
wohoo.
nevertheless..i m meeting him later before going in for the night shift..
wish me luck.
i need sleep.

XOXO,
8:57:00 PM

happy birthday sister.
u nitwit.
will pass you the present once i get my first paycheck.
am fooking broke now.

work has been fine.
tiring but still fun.
at least i have something to occupy myself with
instead of pining away for scummy.
hehz.

he called.
apparently he's still alive and kicking ass sumwhere out there in PA.
he say the food sucks though.
and to think my own company is catering for their food over there.
what a coincidence.
lol.

aight doing night shift tonight.
wish me luck.
;)

XOXO,
9:45:00 PM

Pardon my manners, i need to scream
i know ur reading this syirin abdul munaf or is it manaf?
thanks for the ride home and i forgot to pay for my soya bean back!!
nanti aku blanja kau shark fin eh?

empty.
i feel empty.
its hard pretending to be unaffected.
when the smallest tiniest things reminds me of you.

well it s all your fault muhammad feroz bin basheer!!
its your fault that i resembled a walking dead zombie at the airport just now!!
Its all your fault that the smallest things reminds me of you!!
even my watch and my notebook!!!
i know you wunt be reading this and it serves no purpose!!
but i need to scream it out sumwhere!!
why ?? whyyyy did u have to choose that damn notebook for work??
now even working reminds me of you..argh!!
holy shit.
this is gona be tougher then i tot.
pray for me people.
i need some counselling.
help?

XOXO,
5:06:00 AM

Goodbye for now?

Went out for the last time before he books in tmorrow morning.
Had lunch at maimunah's, took our normal stroll to suntec.
Had an enlightening conversation over oreo cheesecake and mocha frap.
Hitch on a long bus ride to Jurong for fun.
Took the train back to yishun.
played scissors paper stone & pepsi cola 123 in the train.
Had banglas luffing at our childish acts.
said his goodbyes to my family.
said our goodbyes to each other
and off he goes home with me waving frantically at my kitchen window.
i probably looked dumb there and then.
but who cares.
im gona miss my scummy terribly for the next 3 weeks or so.
damn you singapore goverment.

the best thing that could happen tmorrow,
is him being called up by SPF saying that he is exempted from NS.
I ll be the happiest bitch around.
he ll get a job and we can get married.
and he ll be all mine mine and mine.
*yays*

yea right.
dream on kinah.

XOXO,
4:14:00 AM

spent some quality time with the family.
It hit me that life's simple pleasures such as these are hard to come
when im working.
To sleep till god noes when.
To laze about and slack with my loved ones.
To enjoy a good conversation with your parents.
To have a good laugh over something dumb.
To Meet up with frens and just gossip till we drop.

By the time i come back home,
I ll be too tired to even hold a conversation with anyone.
I ll be walking around like a grumpy zombie and jumping into bed in no time.

i miss my mum the most actually during the first week of work.
as much as i hate to admit it.
dunt really understand it myself.

even having a game of daytona with mastan is pleasurable.
sheesh.

XOXO,
6:27:00 AM