My pillar of Strength-My Father

Dearest papa,

That small gesture u did last night may have seem small.
But you had no idea what it meant to me.

That small gesture u did made me realise what a great man i think you are.
It reminded me of how grateful im to god for making me your daughter.
It even made me felt Unworthy of ur Love.

For tt one moment.
i was ashamed of myself.
of all the wrong doings ive done for the past few years.
i so want to be tt perfect daughter you ve always thought i was.
But im so very sorry that i wasnt.
i wish i can cry my hearts out to you.
tell you how sorry im for all those mistakes ive done.

i wish i can express my feelings out to you.
tell you how much i love you.
even though i dunt say it out to u at all when mastan and sis says it.
even though i dunt kiss u on the cheek when mastan and sis does it.
even though i refuse to apologise to u knowing that its my fault.

you are simply wonderful.
thank you for being in my life.
thank you for being my pillar of strength.
thank you for loving me.

XOXO,
9:06:00 AM

Symptoms of madness
1.smiling myself to sleep.
2.smiling to myself while im sleeping.
3.smiling to myself when i wake up.
4.smiling to myself when im eating.
5.smiling to myself when im watching TV..even though the show's not funny at all.
6.smiling to myself while my mum is screaming her lungs out at me to wash the dishes.
7.smiling to myself when my sister kicks my head in her sleep.
8.Hugging MASTAN when i wake up in the morning.(thats totally mad)
9.Telling mastan how much i love him first thing in the morning.(thats mad too)
10.spending 6 hours a day on msn chatting,
another 6 hours a day to find excuses to get out of this pigeon hole
and the other 12 hours checking my HP on an hourly basis.

ive been stuck on cloud 9 for de past 2 weeks.
Bloody hell...
i never would have dreamt ill be on cloud 9 anymore.
lost any hope in that.

but sheesh.
here im..boucing with the carebears on cloud 9.
having the time of my life.
after such a bloody long time.

u r probably wundering what the hell is this woman toking abt.
dunt mind me.
im juz going nuts.
yesh.
im officially declared mad.

XOXO,
7:22:00 AM

All i want is you

You say you want
Diamonds on a ring of gold
You say you want
Your story to remain untold

But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

You say you'll give me
A highway with no one on it
Treasure just to look upon it
All the riches in the night

You say you'll give me
Eyes in a moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

You say you want
Your love to work out right
To last with me through the night

But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you.

XOXO,
8:47:00 PM

secondary skool

aight.i can finally go shopping.its abt bloody time!

Last few days have been hectic for me.
Ive been "dragged" by the family for visiting.
visiting all those uncles n aunties that u meet up with only once a year.

those that come up to your dad and say ..
"Wahhhh....da besar anak luuu sariipppp"
(wah..ur kid's all grown up now sariipppp(tts what they call my dad))
or
"ade bf"
(got bf?)
or

the worst and the one i get all the time*rollseyes*

"which secondary skool are u studying at?!"

what the toot.
im 18 for god s sake.
use a magnifying glass will ya?!!!

*bleah*
typical dodos.
pass me a machine gun and ill shoot all of em dead.

XOXO,
9:08:00 AM