Heathen Chemistry

Friday: Went back to YSS with Fara For Our "High Skool ReUnion".
Obviously we came back NOT for the teachers But more so to meet up with our "Dear" ex skoolmates
It was nice to noe that Most of them haven changed at all after all these years.

Adha's still The Lovable Class Clown,
Dian's still the "Makcik Peah"
and Farhana's NO of ex Boyfrens R still Increasing RAPIDLY.
Suhairi's Still Retarded, Khairin's still the Cute "MalayBoy",Shahrizal was still dumb
and Estar still calls me His Retarded Darling Papadum.(dunt ask me y)...

i actually spent a day out with Adha,Dian and Fara after that..Went al the way down to bugis..On a bus trip.
And adha was Busy Recalling all those Lame things we use to do in Class..
Example:
Like How Fara n Her gets Caught for Sleeping During English lessons By our Form Teacher whom everyone Hates Pretty much.
Like how i Use to sit outside Class everyday for Malay lessons Coz i "supposedly" Lost my Book.
Like how i make Adha and Farhana Run to Buy My food the Minute the bell rings..During recess..

Like How they Discovered that I wore This BM2000 Pair of Shoes to skool in Sec 3~ (I actually Pasted white tape on top of the brand
coz i didnt want ppl to noe that it was BM2000, ..But sum Idiot realised it and took it off without me noeing and saw it and yesh..it was too late to
do anything by then...*sighz*)

Like how i got Sacked as The MOnitress in class...Sheesh.

Those were the days.
i didnt realised How much i missed them till yesterday.
i didnt realised how much i want to go back to those days when
Everything was abt breaking the rules and NOt giving 2 Hoots to what the world Thinks.
It was Pretty much "colorful" then..
The Misery we gave to Teachers, The fights we had amng Ourselves, The Fun times we had..
all those bittersweet Memories that we ll Cherish for Life....*sigh*

Life right now is Basically juz a Straight thin Line. More like a routine thats to be repeated Daily.
How boring.*yawns*

XOXO,
5:16:00 AM

Beautiful Beautiful Song.....

ColdPlay's The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me you questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming in tales
Heads are a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing tails
And coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

XOXO,
7:40:00 AM

There comes A point in life when u juz wanna Let go of Everything and say.."thats it,i give up"
I guess im at that particular Point right now.
Sick of everything.
Sick of this pretense.
sick of running around.
sick of being thrown around in all directions.
sick sick sick sick..

I realised that im not like this when im around ppl.
I never fail to Live up to the Normal "Class Clown Image" when im around my darling Frens.
But then at the end of de day when im walking back home alone,
ill turn into de sick morbid retard that i really am.
Loneliness kills i guess.

yea,Sometimes i wish You were still here.

Sometimes i wish i hadnt Drawn that Line i did.
i wish you were here to listen to my Utter Rubbishness.
i wish you were here to entertain my Nonsensical opinion abt the world.Like you always do.
i wish you were here so that you ll knock some sense into me.
i wish you were here to show me the directions ,then at least i wouldnt feel so Lost right now.

i wish i wish i wish i wish?..
i wish u could here me screaming in my mind,calling out for you....right now..
But then again, how could you?
You are Long Gone.

Reality bites i guess.

New Dawn Fades

A change of speed, a change of style.
A change of scene, with no regrets,
A chance to watch, admire the distance,
Still occupied, though you forget.
Different colours, different shades,
Over each mistakes were made.
I took the blame.
Directionless so plain to see,
A loaded gun won't set you free.
So you say.

We'll share a drink and step outside,
An angry voice and one who cried,
'We'll give you everything and more,
The strain's too much, can't take much more.'
Oh, I've walked on water, run through fire,
Can't seem to feel it anymore.
It was me, waiting for me,
Hoping for something more,
Me, seeing me this time, hoping for something else

XOXO,
7:46:00 PM

Little Things of Venom

Next week's Study Week!im suppose to be excited but hell im not.
I can feel the pressure now...Finally.
Unbelievably i sat and concentrated in class juz now.
i even did 2 Organizational Charts,1 EEpc Diagram and 1 Sequence Diagram today!
But sheesh 3rd last day of skool..Kinda late dunt u think?

lemme check...I have 2 presentations coming up withing this week.
One More lab test and One more damn Quiz.
The UniCam Lab test juz now was simply Horrifying.
Im confident that i can score at least a 6 out of 100 for it.

doesnt help that my mind's as messed up as it can get right now.
i mean how much more messed up can a messed up Mind get?
*urgh*
I need counselling.

XOXO,
5:29:00 AM

Footsteps

This Footsteps leave a trail
From where i use to be.
To where i do not know.
The Heat's Engulfing me.

i travelled Many miles.
i swam through many Seas.
I know the Hidden Fear.
That threatens to swallow me.

Im Running i cant stop
I hit the Ground i drop
Pick myself up Again,
And wipe away my shame.

its never here Nor there.
Stop Looking at me,Dont stare.
My journey's Just Begun.
To finish it,i run.

XOXO,
9:05:00 AM