BitterSweet Symphony

Been digging her own grave recently.
Shes falling real fast into that Hole,that she told herself not to.
She took a big bold step into it and now she cant seem to get herself out.
Its a mistake and its wrong.
She knows that at the end of it all..
She will be the one Left Helpless,Hurt and betrayed.

Angry at her own lack of self control.
What happened to her?
wheres the girl that told herself to be strong all this while?
Shes turning into a weakling.and she noes it.
and shes allowing herself too.

But why?
when shes knows that shes going to be shattered glass pieces after everything stops?
when shes knows shes gona be left standing there.
Alone.Humiliated and hurt at the end of the day.

Why take the risk?
Maybe its because at least for now,shes smiling.

Confused.Bewildered.Angry.and Tired of this whole pretence.
Someone save her..Please?

XOXO,
7:21:00 PM

Ps: Can you hear it?..That voice...*sigh*..Lovely.
Thank you sister:P

Counselling

"Study kinah...
go study.
Dont you get it?..if u keep procrastinating..ull end up getting a freaking F for ur modules.

I noe the Internet is calling you and that u cant help but put ur hands on that damn Mouse and start surfing.
BUT...
You Have to STUDY.

I noe that Electronics and Automation is a F**king boring Module..that makes u sleep with ur face smack in the book ..
BUT
...You have to STUDY.

I noe that its tough trying to resist the temptation of munching those chocolates u saw in the fridge juz now..
BUT
You have to study.

i noe that the Bed beside you Looks so Yummy right now..and all you can think abt is getting a nice good nap on it...
BUT
you have to study."

~The WITCH is not in one of her best moods right now.
Hungry.Sleepy.Exhausted.Frustrated.
Ignore me.-_-

XOXO,
1:35:00 AM

Secrets

Its disturbing when u come to terms with your self-kept dark secrets isnt it?
The ones that haunt you no matter where when and how.
The ones that you kept Locked up in your very own pandora box.
The ones that you will refuse to Aknowledge if you are given a choice to.

But all the while..its just there i guess..staring straight in your face.
And theres nothing you can do about it.

Its disturbing when u realised that whats done cannot be undone.
and you cant do anything about it cept' just coming to terms with them.
Accepting your mistakes and making a lesson out frm them,
which is easier said then done most of the time.

Its disturbing when you try so very hard to be a better person out from it.
When your determined to put everything behind and Run very very far away from them.
When your making desperate attempts to change.

**Ive realised this, thanks to a conversation i had with a particular someone last night.
It wasnt easy for you i guess,Saying everything out like that.
It would have been Impossible for me if i were in your shoes.
I would be Lying to you if ive told you that i wasnt shock.
Nevertheless thank you for being Honest.
Thank you for making the picture alittle bit more clearer then it already is.
Thank you for making it seem so easy to talk things out with you.
you have no idea how much that meant to me.

No ones perfect i guess.
Not me.Not you.Not anyone else.
everyone has flaws.
its just how u deal with them.

You'r a good person.
thank you for being you.

XOXO,
7:38:00 PM

Reflecting silence

Flowy White curtains.
Slight breeze entering thru the windows
Sunlight streaming in.
Birds chirping.
Silence.
alone.
smiles.

Lovely morning to wake up too..
Dont you think so?
Good day people:)

XOXO,
8:01:00 PM

C++ Presentation went well juz now.went too well.Mr Low was bloody lenient.I didnt even had to explain anything.
all we did was run our program and that was it.
if i had known it was gona be that simple.
i wldnt have woke up at 9am juz to go thru the freaking codes all over again!
waste of my bloody time.

after presentation..Hang out wif Lynn n Yanqing @Bugis..
even took neoprints!...
sheesh...
We spent the journey back home discussing abt how the Future will be in 10 years time.
Yanqing predicted tt ill be the first one to get married and have babies.what the fook.
lol.
Ill prob remain an Old Witch at the rate im going.
*sigh*

Advice

Sumone told me that Instead of Blogging down all the Horrible deTails of The Scumbag.
I shld Instead List down his Finer qualities in case he bumps into my site.

so hmm..here goes nothing...let me see:
SCUMBAG=Messy,Cute,Average Boy next Door,Soft spoken(pukes),UNpredictable,Smart,Witty,Is blessed with a Mind tt Works like Confucius.Is Confused too.has a certain particular confident swagger in the way he walks.Logical.Crappy.Hilarious.

Besides all that.My Previous Theories still stands.
He is a Scumbag.

XOXO,
4:17:00 AM

Return of the Jedi

Kohleyes is back wif her New blog..check Her out aight?

and to my dear fren Shelly..Its unfortunate that u had to pull ur blog down.i dunt really noe why..but im sure u have ur reasons..Though i sure as hell think this place will be much quieter without you..
ill miss your tons, good fren..u take care and have a good life aight?
Hey u can always email me at shakinah_khan@yahoo.com.sg.Then we can still keep in contact wif one another!;)

i cant believe i have to return back to skool today.
stupid c++ presentation.
Ill prob be half sleeping on the Keyboard while im presenting.
sheesh.
wish me luck ppl.
i need it.

XOXO,
5:41:00 PM

Smitten
Got this frm a Fren today...
It makes alot of sense doesnt it?

-->i choose to love u in silence because in Silence i Find no rejection.
i choose to Love you in Loneliness because in Loneliness ,You are mine.

sheesh i feel like a secondary 1 girl again.Hell.

XOXO,
1:12:00 AM