A perfect circle

Haven been in the bestest of moods lately.
Been questioning myself alot too.
Somethings's wrong.
Something's going really wrong.
and i am helpless at stopping it .

Im frustrated.
Im angry.
Im confuse.
Im irritated.
I have a frown plastered on my face 90% of the time.

I cant seem to understand how the human mind works sometimes.
and no this has nothing to do with my scumbag.
he is as perfect as can be.
In fact, i have only him to take me out,far far away from my dark heavy thoughts.

sometimes i feel like screaming.
and sometimes i just dunt feel like talking anymore.
There isnt much left to talk about anyways.
i rather shut up and dunt bother abt the things happening around me.
Its your end.
Not mine.
So dig the grave deeper while your at it.
Im too tired to stop you anyways.

Just dunt think u can hide that long though.

XOXO,
9:58:00 PM

It is cold in here.

and feroz is not here yet.

My fingers are already feeling numb.

and there is a possiblity that i will start screaming any second from now.

He better come fast.Before i blow my top.

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

XOXO,
11:28:00 PM

Apologies

a thousand apologies to my many many fans out there.
(if there are any in the first place , or whatever that 's left out of it)

I have been busy.Extremely.
Exams.Job hunting.Applications.
Photostating.Projects.Spewing Vulgarities at Jeffrey Ong.
Paying money.Calculating.
Etc etc.

It is February.
So a Very happy birthday(belated) to:
My Beautiful Mother, My Beloved Scumbag(He's 21!*hugs*) & My Beloved Scumbag's Mother.
In other words,
im officially declared bankrupt.

Cant wait for my next cheque.
(no matter how little the amount is)

Cant wait for Willy wonka and his Chocolate Factory.
I just saw the trailer.
Farking excited.
Johnny Baby!

and again im ranting in irrelevant redundant paragraphs.
I realise that half of the world blog this way.
and there's nothing abnormal about this.
Well anything's better then this->

"Today baby and i had coffee at coffebean.He had a Capuccino and i had Ice Mocha.
The ice mocha was very nice.Baby said it was nice too.After that we went to the Esplanade and took lots of pictures.Baby said i look good today. Then baby and i went for a short stroll and we took more pictures.I saw this handbag at Heeren after that.
It was so pretty.I really want it. My sweet handsome baby said he will get it for me once he get his pay.*yeayyy* i love u babyyyyyy...u r the best*"

(dunt u just wanna puke?)

XOXO,
4:22:00 AM