Argh~Bleurgh~Sick....
Leung finally called me saying that if i wanted to appeal i had to go to the coz coordinator.wat the hell.coz coordinator didnt respond to my emails too.sick of this.i guess i have to settle for English counselling 2 then .:(....Second semester's gona start soon.Time flies by so freaking fast.I was in sec 4 last yr taking my Os.All i did was study study study n study,had no life.That was prob the Longest period of my 17 yrs of life.I kept counting the days to which the Os will end.Sheesh.And the next thing i noe it,im awaiting my second semester in school to start.Weird.And before i realise it,soon ill be 85 yrs of age...on my deathbed..saying goodbye to de world.(that is if i live thru it that long).Freakky.
I dunnoe whether it happens to ppl too,but sometimes ill wake up in the middle of the nite and i wunt be able to sleep anymore.
All i can think abt is death.Funny tots like..wat if i die tomorrow or sumthing.How am i going to die in the end,freak accident?.or.sum Weird disease? they r the common types rite now.I dunnoe.This weird little tots of mine have always been there.Though it usually comes n goes ,mostly during the nite.It happened more often after my Aunt died in Jan.Her death was such a shock to us..till now my mum and grandma cldnt register it in that shes dead.it was like..she was eating Nasi lemak with me on friday Laughing abt sum malay show and on Monday,she Got into coma and on Tuesday,shes Dead.
Only 36 and Dead.Something abt a bloodclot in her brain bursting.That was a
Huge wake up call for me.And for the Whole family i guess.
im juz writing this coz im feeling sick and morbid on a Sunday morning when i shld be feeling excited abt school reopening
.*sigh*