Trade my Soul to the Fates

Been thinking alot abt my future lately.
What im going to do.
What i plan to do.
What i WANT to do.
i guess im alittle bit too late right here.
But hell..its never too late till ur dead right?

Kinda regret not studying like a HellPig during my first 2 years in Poly.
My Results slip doesnt really have beautiful Grades for me to show off to the world.
But i never use to give a flying fuck about this.Damn.

I guess Its about time i stop relying on people.
It's time i Jump off from that Cloud that i was on.
Together with the Carebears.
Im gona be alone.
And ill have to Get use to that.
So Grow UP Kinah.

Anyways Thanks to Haihan, (a chinese Buddy of mine) who happens
to share the same taste in Music as me ( which is a rare occurence!)

Green Day's "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

XOXO,
6:32:00 AM

I've realised

January 2005,
Alot of things has happened this month.
Things that i Never tot would take place.
Things that i Never wanted in the first place.

No, it didnt happened to me.
But it happened so close to the heart.
And so fast,That i think about it ever so often.

It changed my perspectives in alot of views.
Its like an emotional rollercoaster ride,that goes up and down.
That you go through with Hopes and dreams.
Praying that u ll make it out alive at the end of it all.

And all these while ,you try so hard to
Keep up a strong front.
But no one saw the tears behind all those smiles and laughter.
No one saw you crumbling ever so slowly.
No one knew.

And then one day u woke up,realised that u are sick of it all.
That theres no use fighting for something
that will never happen.
And you threw everything down into that drain.
You walk off & never turn back.

Walking off was obviously not easy.
Picking up the missing pieces and
slowly putting them all back together is even harder.

But nonetheless,
You are doing a great Job out of it.
And i respect you even more for that Sister.
i may not be good at displaying my thoughts and feelings.
But damn it, im impress.

You made the right choice.
and you ll be better off without him.
cause there's many more people out there
who loves you more then he does.

Lets just wait for the next shiny big red apple to
drop on your head again alright?

XOXO,
2:12:00 AM