My Guilty Conscious
I have this problem.
its a huge problem of mine.
i cant lie.
damn it.i cant make myself lie.
especially to ppl who matters the most to me.
My guilty conscious drives me nuts.
to the very brink of insanity.
ill feel all guilty and depress coz i juz lied to sumone who has so much trust in me.
who put so much trust in me.
who trust me enuf to give me my own little fair share of freedom.
This Problem of Mine gets me into HOT SOUP all the time.
ALL the Time.
and it juz did right now.
and this time..
its not only me whos in the HOT soup.
i dragged sumone dear to me along in it.
im so so very sorry that ive put u into this mess.
i seriously hope u understand my situation.
its just me.
im like that.
i cant help it.i hate myself for being like this.
but theres nothing much i can do to stop it.
i feel horrible.im worried sick abt the situation at present now.
i have no idea y ur still here with me.
i have no idea why ur allowing urself to be in this mess along with me.
i have no idea y ur being so patient and understanding when i rather u scream and scold me at my own stupidity.
but
i do noe that whatever it is,ill be here for you.
i do noe that,we ll make it out of this mess soon.
im juz hanging on and praying really hard that everything goes well.
with you,everything does.
thank you.