♥ Saturday, May 24, 2003
And you,
Bring me to my knees
Again,
All the times
That I could beg you please
In vain
All the times
That I felt insecure
For you
But I leave
My burdens at the door
**But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you**
All the times
That I felt like this won't end
Was for you
And I taste
What I could never have
It's from you
All the times
That I've tried
My intentions
Full of pride
But I waste
More time than anyone
All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow wil be OK
**But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you**
Bring me to my knees
Again,
All the times
That I could beg you please
In vain
All the times
That I felt insecure
For you
But I leave
My burdens at the door
**But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you**
All the times
That I felt like this won't end
Was for you
And I taste
What I could never have
It's from you
All the times
That I've tried
My intentions
Full of pride
But I waste
More time than anyone
All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow wil be OK
**But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you**
XOXO,
9:18:00 PM
9:18:00 PM
♥ Friday, May 23, 2003
Eye of de World.
Blood and Ashes!(like what Perrin Aybara would say in it)This book is great.No wonder my sister was forcing the book up my nostrils.Now i cant put it down.But Light help me im such a freaking slow reader.I ve still got like 200 more pages to go and theres like 6 more books to it.sheesh.As u can see the Book's my only salvation in this house together equip with the Weather.*bleargh*..i have Half a mind to run out of my house into the soccer field beside my flat and start Doing the Rain dance like all those Aboriginal Ppl...To hell wif all the Mat Bolas.
Dear God,Please let it rain soon.Not too much, not to little too lah?..Please?
P.s: FARA, if u r reading my blog...Kau nyer exams dah bis ke belummmm???Nak Kluarrr?!!.aku Boringggg giler stuck pat rumah!!..Kau call aku k???
Blood and Ashes!(like what Perrin Aybara would say in it)This book is great.No wonder my sister was forcing the book up my nostrils.Now i cant put it down.But Light help me im such a freaking slow reader.I ve still got like 200 more pages to go and theres like 6 more books to it.sheesh.As u can see the Book's my only salvation in this house together equip with the Weather.*bleargh*..i have Half a mind to run out of my house into the soccer field beside my flat and start Doing the Rain dance like all those Aboriginal Ppl...To hell wif all the Mat Bolas.
Dear God,Please let it rain soon.Not too much, not to little too lah?..Please?
P.s: FARA, if u r reading my blog...Kau nyer exams dah bis ke belummmm???Nak Kluarrr?!!.aku Boringggg giler stuck pat rumah!!..Kau call aku k???
XOXO,
9:19:00 PM
9:19:00 PM
♥ Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Me,My religous classes and irritating Makciks pissing the living daylights out of myself.
I cant help but blog abt this.No offence to anyone really
Well i went to my usual religious class last nite together wif My sis,Papau and Zahidah.Once there,We always and i mean ALWAYS get to sit in de front row no matter how late we r.I mean the Old timers there juz love and ADore us.Its like..the front row is Specially for the younger grp to come later.Its IMportant to Get the front Row so u dunt have to worry abt the ppl sitting at the back...in front or anywhere else around u.It s juz u and The ustad.
BUt lately Theres been this Group of NEWCOMERS,nw faces,new bunch of makciks whom for 2 weeks CONsecutively came and took our places.Fine ,cant blame them coz in religious classes..its always on a First come first serve basis...Argh blame it on us for being late.Besides that,Everytime u c a makcik looking at u in there,u juz have to Smile.Smile kinah smile.Its only manners.But this makciks..Ignores ur Smile.Returning it wif a Smirk.there was once i TOT i saw an old makcik looking at me and saying.."Haha i got here Firstttt"...sheesh.so ok lah...Besides TT..we have to squeeze our ways into the 3rd Row.And i must say.The space there is SOOO limited even i cant Squeeze my tiny (not there)Bums into it.And u noe y its soooo limited?...coz those unreasonable makciks took up all the space in the world in front.And when i politely asked one to move in front..i repeat Keyword here is POLITELY.she turn and said in a very loud shrill voice "Macam mane Nak Move depan!?>.awak tgk lah!?"...
The next whole paragraph is specially dedicated to this Auntie:(p.s: this is what i wld say to her if we all werent attending a religious class at tt point of time):
U stupid Dingbat! That was such a stupid Question.Obviously u can ask the person in front of u to move what!There was a huge space in FRONT.thats what everyone else does.Stupid piece of lame crack nut.Ur ass is Like the Size of 2 titanics,(ok fine im exaggerating) and u still got the cheek to Place those 2 big melons in the middle and taking up all the space in de world.My cousin had to sit sideways thanks to u last night.Bodoh.Nyanyuk.Juz coz ur there doesnt mean i shld even respect u in the first place u old woman.U have to earn it Urself.So what if ur in religioous classes, i think it juz beats up the whole purpose if ur there and acting likewise.For 2 hours,u practically squeezed us to death at the back.without thinking abt US at all.Incorrigible fool.Nvm abt that..U still got the bloody cheek to "Chop chop" place for ur frens who haven come yet!...hello..u dunt do tt in there..its Taboooo..First come first serve .U dunt Put ur bag there and say ..."Sini takleh duduk"..U dunt Own the Freaking place.U dunt even have the BOOK for the class in de first place.Go get urself a bk first before acting that way.
So yesh besides that FAT donkey,we had to tolerate this Woman at the back who was fanning herself with those Chinese Fans they have here in spore.Like as if theres not enuf Air conditioners in that place.sheesh.Meluat Giler.And this another Old cracknUT sitting at de back of zahidah and asking Zahidah to "Shhhh"!.Nenek pun lagi satu.Gi beli BUku dulu lah.Abih cakap orang bebual kuat.nenek bebual orang Pasir ris boleh dgr ..cakap Banyak.
Again i wld like to repeat that i hope this blog doesnt offend anyone in particular...(mane lerr tahu i have a few makcik Fans out there?..i was juz bloody pissed off with this Bunch last nite.But i guess its juz Cubaaan....but sheesh..takleh tahan seh.....haizz...Next week im gona be the First one to come.I dunt care.Ill be sitting there and Smirking at U MAKCIKS back..Juz u makciks Wait and c.I ll be BACK.
I cant help but blog abt this.No offence to anyone really
Well i went to my usual religious class last nite together wif My sis,Papau and Zahidah.Once there,We always and i mean ALWAYS get to sit in de front row no matter how late we r.I mean the Old timers there juz love and ADore us.Its like..the front row is Specially for the younger grp to come later.Its IMportant to Get the front Row so u dunt have to worry abt the ppl sitting at the back...in front or anywhere else around u.It s juz u and The ustad.
BUt lately Theres been this Group of NEWCOMERS,nw faces,new bunch of makciks whom for 2 weeks CONsecutively came and took our places.Fine ,cant blame them coz in religious classes..its always on a First come first serve basis...Argh blame it on us for being late.Besides that,Everytime u c a makcik looking at u in there,u juz have to Smile.Smile kinah smile.Its only manners.But this makciks..Ignores ur Smile.Returning it wif a Smirk.there was once i TOT i saw an old makcik looking at me and saying.."Haha i got here Firstttt"...sheesh.so ok lah...Besides TT..we have to squeeze our ways into the 3rd Row.And i must say.The space there is SOOO limited even i cant Squeeze my tiny (not there)Bums into it.And u noe y its soooo limited?...coz those unreasonable makciks took up all the space in the world in front.And when i politely asked one to move in front..i repeat Keyword here is POLITELY.she turn and said in a very loud shrill voice "Macam mane Nak Move depan!?>.awak tgk lah!?"...
The next whole paragraph is specially dedicated to this Auntie:(p.s: this is what i wld say to her if we all werent attending a religious class at tt point of time):
U stupid Dingbat! That was such a stupid Question.Obviously u can ask the person in front of u to move what!There was a huge space in FRONT.thats what everyone else does.Stupid piece of lame crack nut.Ur ass is Like the Size of 2 titanics,(ok fine im exaggerating) and u still got the cheek to Place those 2 big melons in the middle and taking up all the space in de world.My cousin had to sit sideways thanks to u last night.Bodoh.Nyanyuk.Juz coz ur there doesnt mean i shld even respect u in the first place u old woman.U have to earn it Urself.So what if ur in religioous classes, i think it juz beats up the whole purpose if ur there and acting likewise.For 2 hours,u practically squeezed us to death at the back.without thinking abt US at all.Incorrigible fool.Nvm abt that..U still got the bloody cheek to "Chop chop" place for ur frens who haven come yet!...hello..u dunt do tt in there..its Taboooo..First come first serve .U dunt Put ur bag there and say ..."Sini takleh duduk"..U dunt Own the Freaking place.U dunt even have the BOOK for the class in de first place.Go get urself a bk first before acting that way.
So yesh besides that FAT donkey,we had to tolerate this Woman at the back who was fanning herself with those Chinese Fans they have here in spore.Like as if theres not enuf Air conditioners in that place.sheesh.Meluat Giler.And this another Old cracknUT sitting at de back of zahidah and asking Zahidah to "Shhhh"!.Nenek pun lagi satu.Gi beli BUku dulu lah.Abih cakap orang bebual kuat.nenek bebual orang Pasir ris boleh dgr ..cakap Banyak.
Again i wld like to repeat that i hope this blog doesnt offend anyone in particular...(mane lerr tahu i have a few makcik Fans out there?..i was juz bloody pissed off with this Bunch last nite.But i guess its juz Cubaaan....but sheesh..takleh tahan seh.....haizz...Next week im gona be the First one to come.I dunt care.Ill be sitting there and Smirking at U MAKCIKS back..Juz u makciks Wait and c.I ll be BACK.
XOXO,
8:55:00 PM
8:55:00 PM
♥ Tuesday, May 20, 2003
i juz dwnloaded this song in de morning.Had always been my all time Favourite frm Michael Jackson.
~Who is It?~
I Gave Her Money
I Gave Her Time
I Gave Her Everything
Inside One Heart Could Find
I Gave Her Passion
My Very Soul
I Gave Her Promises
And Secrets So Untold
And She Promised Me Forever
And A Day We'd Live As One
We Made Our Vows
We'd Live A Life Anew
And She Promised Me In Secret
That She'd Love Me For All Time
It's A Promise So Untrue
Tell Me What Will I Do?
And It Doesn't Seem To Matter
And It Doesn't Seem Right
'Cause The Will Has Brought
No Fortune
Still I Cry Alone At Night
Don't You Judge Of My Composure
'Cause I'm Lying To Myself
And The Reason Why She Left Me
Did She Find In Someone Else?
I Am The Damned
I Am The Dead
I Am The Agony Inside
The Dying Head
This Is Injustice
Woe Unto Thee
I Pray This Punishment
Would Have Mercy On Me
~Who is It?~
I Gave Her Money
I Gave Her Time
I Gave Her Everything
Inside One Heart Could Find
I Gave Her Passion
My Very Soul
I Gave Her Promises
And Secrets So Untold
And She Promised Me Forever
And A Day We'd Live As One
We Made Our Vows
We'd Live A Life Anew
And She Promised Me In Secret
That She'd Love Me For All Time
It's A Promise So Untrue
Tell Me What Will I Do?
And It Doesn't Seem To Matter
And It Doesn't Seem Right
'Cause The Will Has Brought
No Fortune
Still I Cry Alone At Night
Don't You Judge Of My Composure
'Cause I'm Lying To Myself
And The Reason Why She Left Me
Did She Find In Someone Else?
I Am The Damned
I Am The Dead
I Am The Agony Inside
The Dying Head
This Is Injustice
Woe Unto Thee
I Pray This Punishment
Would Have Mercy On Me
XOXO,
10:59:00 PM
10:59:00 PM
*One Hella of a Gd Looking Bangla i tell u*
XOXO,
5:18:00 AM
5:18:00 AM
♥ Monday, May 19, 2003
*Today*
Today was a good day.Today went smoothly.Today i finally manage to bump into our very own regular,AhliKuburNYP,face to face in skool during our Club crawl seminar.(erm sorry lah ...macam paisey sikit ah...I shy...:))Today i finally manage to meet up with my Darling Girlfren,the ever Sweety Pie NINI.Had lunch and thruout the whole thing we managed to tok abt Everything under the sun i guess.Our topics were Funny..From Backstabbing Bitches in skool to Pregnancies and Motherhood and even to erm Sewing Curtains and Burnt Vegetables.sheesh.i never run out of things to say when im wif NINI.
yea so now im at home.Awaiting impatiently to see my Tom welling later at 1030;)
*Tomorrow*
Tomorrow will be a bad day.Tomorow will be the dreaded dental's appointment day.Tomorrow will be the day i will have to Make my decision.Probably the Biggest decision in my 18 years of life so far.sheesh.Im freaked.Never been this freaked before.wish me ...erm Luck ppl?...nono..not Luck..Pray for me aight?...
Today was a good day.Today went smoothly.Today i finally manage to bump into our very own regular,AhliKuburNYP,face to face in skool during our Club crawl seminar.(erm sorry lah ...macam paisey sikit ah...I shy...:))Today i finally manage to meet up with my Darling Girlfren,the ever Sweety Pie NINI.Had lunch and thruout the whole thing we managed to tok abt Everything under the sun i guess.Our topics were Funny..From Backstabbing Bitches in skool to Pregnancies and Motherhood and even to erm Sewing Curtains and Burnt Vegetables.sheesh.i never run out of things to say when im wif NINI.
yea so now im at home.Awaiting impatiently to see my Tom welling later at 1030;)
*Tomorrow*
Tomorrow will be a bad day.Tomorow will be the dreaded dental's appointment day.Tomorrow will be the day i will have to Make my decision.Probably the Biggest decision in my 18 years of life so far.sheesh.Im freaked.Never been this freaked before.wish me ...erm Luck ppl?...nono..not Luck..Pray for me aight?...
XOXO,
5:27:00 AM
5:27:00 AM
♥ Sunday, May 18, 2003
Can sumbody tell me y am i not sleepy yet?This is weird.Im sleepy yet i cant sleep.Ive been getting weird dreams lately.Esp abt YOU.Freaky.I guess u decided to play Witchcraft on me aye?Been putting out a curse or 2 on me lately havent ya?Hmm.Nvm..Seize the day kinah.I shall win this War.I refuse to be brought dwn by YOU.Of all the goddamnedest ppl..not YOU.Try harder .
XOXO,
10:02:00 AM
10:02:00 AM
I fell in love with this Oldie thanks to my sis,didnt noe i was capable of even liking this kinda songs...hmm..
~*Casablanca*~
I fell in love with you
Watching Casablanca,
Back row at the driven show
in the flickering light
Pop-corn and cokes
Beneath at the stars
Became champagne and caviare.
Making love
On the long hot summer's night
I thought you fell in love
With me watching Casablanca
Holding hand beneath the paddle fan
In Rick's candle lit cafe,
Holding in the shadows from the spots
A rocky moon light in your arms
Making magic in the movies
In your old Chevrolet
Oh' a kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
A kiss is not a kiss without your sign.
Please come back to me in Casablanca.
I love you more and more each day
As time goes by.
I guess there are many broken hearts
In Casablanca,
You know I've really been there,
So I don't know.
I guess our love will never be seen
On the big wide silver screen,
But it hurt as bad
When I had to watch you go.
~*Casablanca*~
I fell in love with you
Watching Casablanca,
Back row at the driven show
in the flickering light
Pop-corn and cokes
Beneath at the stars
Became champagne and caviare.
Making love
On the long hot summer's night
I thought you fell in love
With me watching Casablanca
Holding hand beneath the paddle fan
In Rick's candle lit cafe,
Holding in the shadows from the spots
A rocky moon light in your arms
Making magic in the movies
In your old Chevrolet
Oh' a kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
A kiss is not a kiss without your sign.
Please come back to me in Casablanca.
I love you more and more each day
As time goes by.
I guess there are many broken hearts
In Casablanca,
You know I've really been there,
So I don't know.
I guess our love will never be seen
On the big wide silver screen,
But it hurt as bad
When I had to watch you go.
XOXO,
7:22:00 AM
7:22:00 AM