Guilt
I always Looked up to Him.
Respected him for what he was.
Idolised him because of his capabilities and character.
Have Always wanted to be like him.
i was worried.
the only person i could have asked was him.
and when i asked him about her...
he told me a lie.
He noes its a lie.He noes that what he said abt her was NOT true at all.
he walked away and left me standing there in a state of shockness.
shocked coz i never expected him to say that.
Shocked coz i expected him to give me answers and helped her.
shocked coz she does not deserve this treatment.
but he shrugs it off with a Lie.
Hes a hypocrite.a Liar.a disappointment.
i should have never gotten myself involved in this.
I shouldnt have dragged her in it with me too.
she Has always been there for me.
No matter when where how and why.
and what does she get in return for doing that?
shit.
i love her like my own sister.
and what did i get her into?
shit.
i hate them for doing this.
i blame myself for all this mess.
Useless.Gullible.Vulnerable.Naive.Guilty.Hurt.
Im terribly sorry.